For me, eating clean goes something like this: Try, try, try, attempt, try, take a weekend off, feel guilt, prepare to try again … and repeat.
It’s Monday and I’m trying again. I’ve lost track of the number of Mondays I’ve tried again.
So what is this eating clean stuff? It’s eating more veggies and some fruit, proteins such as low-fat meat and healthy oils. It also means eating a helluva lot less sugar and staying away from processed foods. Sounds easy doesn’t it. Well, it’s not. Not for me, anyway.
The older you get, the harder this gets – I won’t sugarcoat it and say this is a challenge, this shit’s hard.
In my 20s and 30s, my metabolism was in hyperdrive.
It. Was. AWESOME.
I could eat a pint of ice cream and burn off with just 30 minutes of cardio. At 39, everything changed. I sensed it was slowing down, but I was in denial for a long time after. Today, it doesn’t seem to matter what I eat, healthy or not, I couldn’t burn it off if I were on an elliptical machine for 24 hours straight. I’ve considered starvation, but with me being hypoglycemic, that’s not gonna work too well.
It's a mystery to me why I have these stops and starts. Is it a fear of success? No. Is it a lack of diet plans? Hell no. Have you seen the number of books/Web sites/blogs that are out there? I’m surprised Grumpy Cat doesn’t have his own yet. Maybe he does, I just don’t know it.
This all boils down to patience. Why do you have to wait weeks, months to see results? C’mon, throw me a damn bone here. I’m on my umpteenth celery stick and becoming a little psychotic from the lack of sugar. Maybe a fitness fairy godfather could come down, give me a pat on the back, say I’m doing a good job and show me a photo of my future self after the weight loss. Too much to ask? It’s called INCENTIVE.
I’m sugar-deprived and a little irritable for it. Sugar withdrawal has to be akin to quitting crack or meth.
I could cheat and use diet pills, but I’m leery of long-term side effects. I need to do this if for no other reason, to feel good in my skin. Easy to say, hard to put into practice. I’m trying not to think of this as what food I have to give up, but what I gain in return.
Deep breath. Take it one day at a time. You got this.
This chapter ain't over ... more to come.