Since getting the job offer and giving notice, my disposition has improved exponentially. I want to be better, I want to do better – in everything.
First, there’s a little matter of my health and physical condition. In the year and a half I’ve been at my current job, my exercise time has decreased. The introvert in me needed quiet and alone time. Dummy me, I should’ve included exercise to help me handle the nuclear level stress, but it was easier to go home and hide than risk more human interaction. My diet was atrocious and this wicked cocktail added up to an extra 20 pounds. Before you gasp in horror, everyone in the department has put on weight since working there, mostly from stress eating.
I’ve been starting off slow with some cardio and am working up to lifting more weights. I can’t do my old weight levels quite yet, but I’m clearly doing too much too soon. For example, I tried to do pull ups a week and a half ago and I torqued my shoulder somethin’ good. I had hurt my shoulder several years before and went to physical therapy, so I’m using the exercises the PT gave me to get my shoulder strong again. Better to move a little slower than completely stop.
Second, I’ve been looking at martial arts classes; those probably won’t be until next month, after I’ve had a few weeks to acclimate to regular physical exercise. I have a feeling I’m going to love it, but I will take advantage of the free class before committing.
I’ve been so fortunate to have good health and a strong body, I can’t waste it.
Thirdly, I want to learn to make foam armor. Now that Wizard World decided to bring its con back to our fair city, I need to step up my cosplay game. I’ve watched a few videos and I think I can learn to work with it; it’ll just take a little practice. My future goal is to create a Vampire Hunter D cosplay. It would be a smidge ambitious to try to get it done before next year, but you never know.
Yes, professional development and joining professional organizations are on the list as well.
Since I gave my notice two weeks ago, it’s been psychotically busy here. Today it’s as though the brakes were slammed and it’s just slooooooooooow. I’m not complaining, trust me. The person I need to train on payroll has been in meetings all morning so I’ve been trying to pretend to look busy. Okay, not really, whatever I needed to get done is done.
For the first 10 months of this year life was stagnant. Now it’s November and life’s in hyperdrive. I’ve got my helmet, I’m strapped in and I’m ready to enjoy the ride.
I am excited, ecstatic and jumping out of my freakin’ skin. Okay, only proverbially, it’d be pretty damn scary if I really left my skin.
And even though I’m very excited, yesterday, I had a very real moment of panic. What if I don’t do well or live up to my boss’ expectations?? What if I completely bomb at the job???
I had to stop and take several deep breaths.
The woman who hired me is a smart lady. If she didn’t think I was right for her organization and more importantly, right for the job, she wouldn’t have hired me. Right? Right.
I am qualified for this job. I am meant to have it. My life is changing for the better – and it’s the most incredible, almost indescribable, feeling. I still haven’t fully been able to wrap my head around it.
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I no longer have the yellow school box to keep me organized. Today, I use my smartphone and my trusty, and well-worn, backpack. I’ve never been a briefcase-carrying professional. I tried it, but it just wasn’t me.
Today, I cleaned out the backpack to get it organized and presentable to take to a new job site. All the while I kept thinking about my yellow school box and remembering the same feeling of excitement. And a few jitters, too.